Sunday, January 30, 2011
Friday, January 28, 2011
You celebrated your 4 month birthday in heaven yesterday. I can't imagine how great it must have been! You will always be my 3 day old little boy. It's hard not to think about what you might be like if you were still here with us. Would your 2nd surgery be in the near future? Would you be showing us lots of smiles? I'm certain we would have about a million more pictures of you. :) A part of my heart is with you. I love you so much, and miss you more than I can describe.
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
The strangest thing happened this afternoon. (And I might sound insane.) While I was laying on my bed, I randomly had the notion to smell my hand. My right hand. I teared up. It was Caleb's smell. His exact smell. It brought me right back to those few days with him. It lingered for a minute,then was gone. Was he there with me for that moment? While he was in the CICU, I always stood to the left of him. He always had his head turned to the right side, so this way I could see all of him. I always used my right hand to touch his soft face, toes, and hands. Boy, do I miss him.
I knew you before I formed you in your mother's womb. Before you were born I set you apart. Jeremiah 1:5
Kailey talks more and more about Caleb as the weeks have passed. She brings him up daily. She will say things like, "I miss brother", "I wish I could hold him", or "He was a chunk." :) She gets that last one from hearing us talk about him. Today, while driving in the car, Elton John's song "Tears in Heaven" came on. When it was over, the radio host said the name of the song and all that stuff that they do. Kailey yells from the backseat, "Hey, Heaven! Just like brother!" She is only 3, and never got to meet him. But she has grasped so much, and he is her brother forever. Miss you sweet boy.